grrrrrrr!!!!!

well...it never lasts does it. the levitating feeling of goodness. surrealism, i always had a problem contemplating and understanding that word. but now i get it. getting back to a rut, and finding yourself not where you started but miles behind the damn race-course....phew....

blogging, like so man other hapless souls caught my attention because of the vent it offered. grumbling confessions, condescensions and virtual reality unfolding is quite ok. have sure learnt my lessons....and would always think before yielding. sicking by the originals and the standard beliefs keeps peace and keeping that in mind i guess i have to move ahead.

i dont know when i would get back to writing sense. its been long and it fells miserable. the books too dont feel the same. it all feels so cynical and made up. i hope VS NAIPAUL can bail me out....kiran desai has no effect on me any more...im too numb for that....damn.

shall get back afresh with something new....im sure and i hope soon....will get back to where i started and stay, stay, stay.......